all apologies

I've let myself become sidetracked by this wedding party. Maybe that in addition to summer itself seems to be too much of my day. To be honest I'm not necessarily stressing about the party everyday as much as I am just thinking about something I can do to be ready. Work on the property or some chore I can complete. I tend to think a lot about flowers I'd like in my garden after seeing other people's. That's how I know I'm spending too much time thinking about this party. Getting news here and there about what people can make it - Awesome! and what people can't-- bummer! has also contributed a little to the notion that I'm obsessing a little on this party. Fighting that notion is that I'm not obsessing enough because it is so close. After it is over though I will be relieved which I think is funny in a way that is too ironic to explain easily but I'm still sure it meets the definition. So I'm glad to just get some work done here and there even though I'm secretly wishing for more time. In fact I fantasize about it as much as I do my own flower bed. I think a blog is a great thing to figure this kind of thing out and highly recommend it to new brides and grooms.

Gimme a break!

OR don't I don't care. What are you gonna do to me? Oh that's right you could stop following this blog if I didn't update it. Well then I accept the blame. I am not going to pretend like I was thinking of updating lately though and I apologize to that part of myself that loves to do things repetitively and consistently because I let you down again. Even worse- now I'm always updating my blog by saying how bad I am at updating. Sorry part of my self that doesn't like to accept blame for things... moving on! I'm getting hitched. Well I'm already hitched and I've been busy with these stupid things called wedding invitations. You see, we are married in MASSACHUSETTS (which is spelled wrong in Lightning Duck #1 btw, but not here in Maine. See earlier posts for that rant. Anyway We are still going to party. I'd even love to make it political and flood the press herald here with same sex marriage announcements but can't get people involved. Perhaps a facebook group? hmmm. anyway lately I've been going on tangents, and if I'm not working on something for this party I'm stressing about how the rest of my life is getting side-lined. It's good to work though and that's all I'm doing soo gimme a break!

10 posts?

Alright. Alright. A whole week plus some days is way too long a break from this blog. I know. I had to organize and then I got chickens and a whole lot of things go on. Weeding the gardens is huge. Like a massive chore. I wouldn't give up any of it. So -great news Lightning Duck was a huge hit and it has (sigh) led me to believe that I will have to go ahead and make # 2 faster than a speeding bullet to appease fans and keep kids interested in my successful indy comic. Also I am hopefully getting some shoptime in L.A. so let's keep those fingers crossed eh? I'm liking what I'm coming up with for Lightning Duck # 2 (I think I'm calling this guy Grimm- he's a bad guy you like) and it helps because although Two Spirit Deal is on it's way it needs some editing when I have some quiet time. Can I do both at once? I'm gonna try just because I love comics! pEace!

Did you know?

That this weekend is the MECAF? The MECAF! MECAF! MECAF! I love this thing and I'm excited. It's a lot of fun to say too. Almost like I'm a 4 year old with his own name for cow.. MECAF! Anywho you may have noticed that Lightning Duck should be out by now. Heck even Two Spirit Deal # 2 was supposed to come out this winter but I overestimated my ability to overestimate and instead fell victim to consternation and procrastination. Well now you know the truth and I must say it feels good to get it out there. At the same time I'm ultimately tired and must think of what else I can do for the show. Right now I can sleep sleep sleep because I know that Sunday morning Lightning Duck will be there with bells on! Oh and new T-shirts!!

Guilty Feelings

A whole month I've gone without touching this blog. If you were a lover, I'd be dumped! I'm sorry BCInc. I truly am. You don't really take too much time. I am always doing something though. I need an android version of me that would be really sweet and nice enough to help me out. Who am I kidding? Could I manage an android and myself? Anyway don't look for things to get too much better here for a while as I'm busy prepping for the big show MECAF at the end of this month. http://mecaf.blogspot.com/ Soo that and gardening and you know taking care of the bod- it's all so much and yeah you didn't come here to hear excuses so please.. achem.. excuse me while I go labor.

chug chug chug

No- I am not drinking heavily. I may wish I could if only to let loose. That has never been a problem for me. Tightening up and being good and responsible with my time has been difficult though. Not impossible, but you must realize that when you feel nervous you may actually be having a gut instinct about what you are doing and your conscience is telling you what you should be doing. This is the pressure of a deadline and even more so- a self-imposed one. I must be better at dealing with those. That and craft- too often I would rather be done than do a good job. That is not the way of the force. You must work and love your work and do your work well so that you can enjoy the feeling of having done your best. It was much easier when people (like your parents) just expected you to do your best. It's much harder when you yourself expect that. This piece is a time-out I did for my dad on his birthday. My first Star Trek character ever and it's Uhura. I always did like her. I think my first memory of her was when she was older and did a sexy dance in a cat-lady outfit in Star Trek 5 The Final Frontier. I was like that's cool- this lady is old but she's still passing as sexy. I respect that.

The Collective

I just joined this group courtesy of the awesome Sarah Searle. We shared a table at last year's MECAF. Kudos to her for following through on developing a group of comic book self-publishers in the area! Check out the banner and bio. Post to come soon!http://www.swinsea.com/collective